Of course, there are more odds against me than there are hairs on my head, but I know what God said. It is improbable that God would call me out of darkness, pave the way for my salvation, heal me from debauchery and shame, impart greatness in me, and then hide me under the plumage of mediocrity. NO, NO, NO. God has special plans for me, but I am not privy to the details of said plans. I know not whence I am going. I just know Who is taking me. I am not alone in my unseen journey. Abram was given a promise and an unknown destination. “Now the LORD had said unto Abram, Get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred, and from thy father’s house, unto a land that I will shew thee:” Genesis 12:1

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Abram was told to leave behind everything that was familiar to go somewhere uncertain. This is my lot. I have left a very familiar state of being and am journeying into uncharted territory. I am leaning on God for EVERYTHING. After being instructed to vacate all that was safe and pleasant he received a promise, “And I will make you a great nation,  And I will bless you, And make your name great; And so you shall be a blessing;” Genesis 12:2 What a promise. There is no doubt that the promise outweighed the penetrating fear and sadness of sojourning without loved ones.

I love details. The more details I have regarding something, anything, the better. But God in His omniscience knows that if we know too much too soon it will be counterproductive, bringing futility to His plans, that He will not tolerate, hence the lack of details. What would I like to know? Where exactly am I going? What does it look, smell, feel like? But as I type the real question that is lingering in the forefront of my heart, “What if I am not good enough for where you are taking me?” But I just said that God saved me, paved the way for my salvation via Jesus, healed me, and deposited gifts and abilities in me, but deep inside is fear.

“For in Him you have been enriched in every way, in all speech and all knowledge, because our testimony about Christ was confirmed in you. Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly await the revelation of our Lord Jesus Christ.…” 1 Corinthians 1:5-7

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I am mortified that I cannot meet the demands of the unknown destination. Perhaps, that is why Dad is keeping the parameters top secret because there is absolutely no way I can do anything with where He is taking me- on my own strength. I may measure my ability by my ability forgetting that I am to do everything through Him. After all, His strength is made perfect in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). My deficiency is sufficient to accomplish God-given assignments when coupled with His power. The biggest thing that I need to do where I am and where I am going is to: BYOB- Believe, Yield, Obey, and, Beware. I do have some details after all.

Believing- Often I’ve wanted marching bands with clanging cymbals and French horns all in agreement to march up to me and confirm what the Lord has told or shown me. I have yet to see one band member. Instead, I get people giving me gentle “Plan B’s” in case God’s plans fail, exit doors, and kind smiles and nods when I say things like the Lord called me to ministry. Even in the recesses of my own mind, I’ve formulated ways of escape in case things don’t pan out, but then I remember Jonah, and I digress. I’ve concluded that if anyone were ever worthy of trust it is the Lord God. I believe what God says. I even believe what God hasn’t said. I believe God’s intent, His plans, and the seedlings of His purposes. I believe God. If that means that I must travel around amid a wilderness growing and learning of Him until I reach the Promised Land so be it. I believe God, no exit door, no Plan B, just God.

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.” John 14:1

Yield- Stepping aside isn’t something that has always been my modus operandi. As a matter of fact, I prided myself in being self-led and driven. Today, I am Spirit-led and guided similar to a sheep. Like a child, I hold out my hand and wait for the Holy Ghost to direct me. When walking, in the spirit, I take the backseat as the Sprit has a greater connection with the Lord than I have; therefore, can lead me more than I can myself. Yielding is interrelated with believing and obeying, as you must believe and be obedient to yield. Recently, I laid down yet another sinful habit. I surrendered. I yielded to the Spirit of God at work within me. Surrendering allows us to be arrested by the Holy Spirit, in grace’s custody and imprisoned by love. As I journey into the unknown with the Lord making a wrong move could be dangerous but as I yield to His leading I will always be safe.

“But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,” Galatians 5:22

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Obey- It’s the thing I’d thought I’d be the worst at, my love for God sparked an undying desire to “get it right.” Of course, I miss the mark, but nowhere near as much as I used to. Someone told me that Christians aren’t sinless, they just practice sinning less. I like that concept. To that end, I see obedience as a condition of the heart more than a series of actions. My heart desires to please God and do His will which produces a series of obedient actions but the actions are the result of my heart, not my heart the result of my actions. I ask God to give me the heart to obey Him and He has done just as requested. He is so kind. God loves to see this level of maturity as it shows Him that I am ready to be trusted with more.

“His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.” Matthew 25:23

Beware- The enemy picked on me when I wasn’t even thinking about executing God’s plan for my life, how much more will he terrorize me now that it is my sole focus? Have you determined to do God’s will for your life, even if it means deserting the familiar and venturing into the unknown? Expect a battle. Expect an epic battle that you’ve already won. Beware that the loser will try to make you believe that he has won. I despise liars, especially the ones that believe their own lies; Satan is that kind of liar. Beware of the feelings that often paralyze us mid-victory dance. We get so close to the finish line and then____________________. Beware. The blank space is different for each of us but it’s as if the journey itself couldn’t cause us to quit, the expected bumps in the road didn’t faze us, but that wicked nemesis of ours fights dirty. When I say beware, that is not a code for, “be anxious” No. Beware is to be prepared, Be ready, Be equipped, educated, and cautious.

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“Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” Joh 16:33

-Lady Jay

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