“Anyway, you bless me I’ll be satisfied!” Many of us have heard this phrase throughout our lives in Christendom; however, very few actually consider what they are stating to the Lord which is potentially dangerous because God will test us based on the confession of our hearts. Yesterday, I announced that I expected a miracle. Did I receive a miracle? Indeed, but it was not what I was expecting the way that I was expecting it. In fact, there are remains of the presenting problem lingering in my home, which is why I found it tough to blog today, as I did not know what to say. I am not deceptive. I am not going to act as if I am not still waiting on the Lord for some things with a strong degree of excitement and eagerness to receive. Notice, I said excitement and eagerness, not anxiety and anger. There was a time, when I would ask God for something, if He did not do it when I expected, how I expected, I would willfully enter depression and camp there until a family member or the Lord Himself dragged me out. I am grateful for the progress that I have made in the Lord. Surely, it is a miracle that the Lord keeps my mind throughout the difficulties and seemingly impossible situations that He allows to build me for Kingdom assignments.

“I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:12-13

My contentment demonstrates my gratefulness, appreciation, and reverence towards God. We are to relish in God’s goodness even if there are deep deficits lurking in our lives. There are many benefits to these insecurities in the natural and spiritual realms. For starters, if I did not have lack, I would not have started this blog as an outlet, there would not have been a need. My lack is used by God to encourage others in similar situations around the world. Additionally, minuscule resources illuminate the true Source in this egotistical world. Society would have you believe that it is self-sustaining; however, when famines, natural disasters, abound it becomes clear Who is truly in control. When we come to know God Almighty we look to Him for help rather than psychics, mediums, Facebook, horoscopes, and etcetera. Insufficiencies prompt a domino effect to force us to lean on God. I have two options before me. Either I can wait on the Lord and gleefully accept whatever He provides, which is always the best for me or I can faint for weariness from the wait.

“but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

“After these things God tested Abraham and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” He said, “Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.”” Genesis 22:1-2

The more I allow God to subtract from me, the better prepared I am for Him to multiply and add to me. Simply stated, more may come after receiving less. When God sees our faithfulness with little He knows that He can trust us with more (Matt. 25:23). But if we only give God the attention and relationship He desires when we are in lack, he may keep us there for the sake of the relationship. Sometimes we cannot stand to be blessed. Sometimes we believe in our hearts that we will remain faithful to God with abundance but God knows our end in the beginning; we cannot fool God. Are you willing to remain committed to the Lord in the subtraction process? What if God subtracted but He promised to multiply, can you trust Him to solve the equation that is our lives without losing heart? The test is not in lack or plenty. The test lies in trusting God in any given circumstance. Similarly, God promised to make Abraham a nation, yet requiring him to sacrifice his son. God promised Abraham multiplication but in the natural, it appeared to be subtraction, even to the point of death of his only son.

“But the angel of the LORD called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.” And Abraham lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, behind him was a ram, caught in a thicket by his horns. And Abraham went and took the ram and offered it up as a burnt offering instead of his son. So Abraham called the name of that place, “The LORD will provide”; as it is said to this day, “On the mount of the LORD it shall be provided.”” Genesis 22:11-14


Can you be content- thanking and praising God after you’ve been divided? Perhaps, you struggled to keep a terminal relationship alive to no avail and now have been split in two, or your salary has been divided by two, three, or four! Can you look God in the face and say thank you? I am learning that God’s math is not like our math. Sometimes, His addition and multiplication require division and subtraction first. He must prune us of us. He must test our sincerity of heart towards His will and His way. God wants to know that we value Him above anything He can give us. As we see with our friend Job, God’s math is tough, but it pays off exponentially.

“After Job had prayed for his friends, the LORD restored his fortunes and gave him twice as much as he had before.” Job 42:10

“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.” Matthew 6:33

Two prayers, plus two actions equals a blessing, right?

Why don’t I see manifestation in sight?

Perhaps, my calculations were incorrect

Or maybe the Lord is working in retrospect

His ways are greater than my own- I’m learning

Evening when He subtracts, I am always earning

Riches of honor, splendor of His majesty

I love your arithmetic, counting blessings into infinity

-Lady Jay

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